24 January 2009



Starting first...

My hamster.. HamHam(that what i alway call her XD) had passed away on 24 january 2009... just a day before chinese new year eve... we were hoping that she would atleast spend last new year with us before going off to heaven with angel wing...
she had ear infection.. the reason we don't know.. ._. it just the next thing we know.. she got ear infection .. my brother friend say this kind of hamster fur is very rare... .. it should be normal grey and white(round there) but hamham got a golden color fur.. it very soft and smooth to touch =)





went to senbanwang... fish market o.o.. this particular fish.. really.. caught my attention o.o
i mean.. IT FREAKING SO CUTE XDXDXDXD!!!



spray.. cannot make it edward spear.. -_- ... (go bang wall)



Opps.. forgot to rotate XD this is my mini edward elric plushie with hitsu.. small mini doggy.. o.o.. you know.. boredem does hurt XD

Today


after school, after cca. meet parent at causeway point.. father was carrying a new monitor o.o.. as my previous one.. in previous post. one of the color wire had spoil.. after 7/8year.. worth it and this is my new monitor.. 18inch XD woot~ but this monitor look familiar.. had i seen it before? >_>

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Chinese new year was alright... play poker card and won around 10 buck... o.o..

on the first day of chinese new year. no plan. just at the evening went to grandma house and eat..
day 2 of chinese new year go 'bai nian'... when we first arrive. i didn't enter the house as there was too many people and too crowded.. AND.. too many unknown face =_=


Yesterday went to hitsu house to 'bai nian' XD
rabit and risa follow suit after awhile i arrive at her house.. o.o than i was spamming her Stepmania.. -coughcough- XD and decided to go to.. (where?) to play ZoneX. and finally i get my zoneX tapcard~~ XD~~~ hitsu play jubeat while i force rabit and risa play parapara =\ o.o

tomorrow hitsu,rabit and risa are coming over to 'bai nian' as well.. XD .. can't wait for it~ it like few month since there friend coming to my house... (can play the uno step again.. rofl XD)

abit messy.. i hope you can read it and understand it XD

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i was wondering. as there kind and sadistic side of me. i enjoy torture people mind.. but at the same time. the kind side will become very guality. and i have to stop. the sadist and kind side alway argue within me.
but my sadist kind is not that evil that will lead me to smoke. sniff glue or whatsoever la... that one me and kind side will go chase after sadist side XD

Kind side thinking
-> really kind.. alway give in, hold no hatre. positive thinking and alway forgive others..
Forget and Forgive is kind side favourite quote.

Sadist/evil side thinking
-> alway bully other, alway add salt to wound... negative comment/thinking, hold a strong hatre towards human.. once enter evil side hate list.. hard to get out. stubborn... if you treat evil side bad.. it will return you the same attiude with double payback. but playful..
don't try mess with me.. i will pay you double worst.. is evil side favourite thinking and quote..

Guess the kind side was develop when i alway forgive people who bully me in my secondary 1 and 2 life...
Kind side.. is like Allen... this side is usually for social-interacting purpose.. kind side is like a normal human being =)

Evil side was develop to protect myself... as... that time.. i have totally lost trust and hope for human... i didn't get helped... when i waited so long... i lost it... i don't feel like going out... i prefer to stay alone... when in reality facts.. i hate being alone.. The feeling was cold.. emotionless... lonely... but i manage to pull it through thank to this evil side.. speaking of the growth of puberty to experiencing this... it was one heck of hell -_-
But still... this side and that kind of feeling i used to feel.. make me able to control my emotion and temper.. i can be emotionless and calm.. or opposite ._.

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